Begging God

Dear, God.
Maybe my life was a rollercoaster but I keep trying to see more detail and deeply than usual. It's like I have no idea to be not thankful.
You, God.
You still give a chance to me to live. You still hold my parents to be here. You still gimme your little surprise. You still gimme something that I never thought it before. You, God.. Your plan is the best plan ever!!!
You couldn't be compared with anything. You are the source of the powers.
One thing I wanna thank is all the people around me. Whomever they are. I'm so thankful. Good or bad guys. They complete my day.
Moreover, You still gimme a belief to be with him. With A. He's like your gift package to me and I'm happy :)
I knew you see. Dear, God.. Even tho' it's been more of two years but my heart still beat fast when I'm with. Or when I'm thinking about. He might not have a lot of sameness with me. That's why we're just completing each other. Like a positive and negative pole, they're totally different but attract :P

I don't know what's the real point but he always.. he almost.. amazing.

I love when he calls me when he knows that I'm crying.
I love when he says he love me as deep as the deep sea and untouch sky. That's your words! :)
I love when he laughs, tease me, telling my sad expression when I cry in front of him. It sucks but I love the way he remembers me when I'm not in a good condition.
I love when he begs me to be forgiven like a child ask the candy to his Mom.
I love when he gives me a simple goodnight or morning text.
I love when he surprises me when I open the door.
I love when he blinks his eyes. It's kinda cute!
I love when he angry because he missing me.
I love when he looking for me and worried about my self.
I love when he keeps telling me I'm sexy even tho' I always tell him I'm fatty :P
I love when he says he love my cheeks even tho' mine is chubby :P
I love when he plays my nose like he didn't have. LOL
I love when he opens his arms wide to get me hug.
I love when he wipes my hair like I'm his lil' sister.
I love when he stands beside me then seeing my self shorter than him.
I love when he gives his shoulder to lean on.
I love when he asleep and shows me his puppy eyes.
I love when he makes it all to me. Even tho' I always confused what should I choose.
I love the way he sobers me. I love the way he makes me addicted.

And I loveeeeeeeeeee everything on A. Even tho', I know he is so fretful sometimes, or getting sensitive. And some friend tells me how flat he is. (Hahaha...) But over all, he's warm and good lover :P

Dear, God. I just can keep anything you give to me. Please teach me how to make them safe. And please, don't take them too early. Parents, fragiles, love, friends. You all so precious! Can not be replaced.

Dear, God. Require A. Please.

A lover to love me.
A brother to protect me.
A bestfriend to listen me.
And Anything.